Once, there was an ancient chinese saying: " 退一步，海阔天空。。。" that I find it to be quite true. Don't believe? Try experimenting it, and you'll eventually see. =)
Previously, my mind has been actively working hardworkingly. I spent much of my time just thinking. And I’ve come to a great deal of realisation on a few facts, or rather to say, truth.
People always say truth hurts. But I can deal with truths, much better than having to face with lies.
Sometimes if one gives out much and receive less, they tend to get tired sooner, feel unworthy of, and be hurted more. (Note: do bear in mind that the term ‘give’ I’m mentioning here, does not refer to material kind of giving, but it refers to mental/ spiritual kind of giving!)
People always say giving is better than receiving. But somehow I find that one should not give too much to those who receive much and yet gives less/never give.
Sometimes if one cares about another much and yet they are less cared of, they tend to feel neglected and often ponders upon the reasons why.
People always say sharing is caring. But what if you always share and yet seldom get the share from others? Or what if you shared, and it is no difference if compared to not sharing at all?
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“A joy shared is doubled the joy.”
and
“A sorrow shared is half the sorrow.”
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Both these quotes I find not necessarily true at all times.
What if the other person doesn’t even treats the joy/sorrow you share as something significant? Do you feel even more joyous/ less sorrower about it? No right.
People say true selfless happiness appears when you are happy for other's success as well, not that you are only happy of your own success.
We need to learn to be happy for others, and what's more, to count their success as our success and feel proud of the contribution we've made in helping them. That being said, it's important that we feel happy for the success others and never feel that another's success diminishes us in any way.
Learning to be happy for the success of others will help you to attract more of that into your life - more happiness, more success. =)
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I have decided.
I will change myself.
There will be a whole new me starting from July onwards. *determined*
I will do what I love to do.
I will focus & study hard for my final year studies.
I will spare time for my loved ones no matter how busy I am.
I will find my own ways to happiness.
I will no longer do things that are not worth doing.
I will not listen to sad Korean songs during the sad times. I need to listen to those hot, bitchy, feel good songs by PCD, Pink, Britney Spears and so on.
I will not sink myself in depression. I need to save myself out of it and cheer myself up.
I've realised that I've been foolish for long. Now it's time to be a different ME!
New rules.
New ways.
New ME.
I realised that I've been unselfish long enough. It's time to be more realistic.
No more late nights.
No more sacrifices.
No more feeling-ful.
I realised that I’ve been slightly over dependent on others. It’s time to be more independent.
No matter joy or sorrow..
No matter well or unwell..
No matter healthy or sick..
No matter sweet, salty, bitter, sour, spicy or whatever taste it is..
I shall endure it with strong will and all the strength I possess.
I shall find solutions to overcome all by myself.
I will stop thinking much. It's time to rest my mind and leave things as it is. What has already happened cannot be undone. It seems that this is the only resort.
Well, it’s another few more days to July. And a few days is all I need, to work things out.
End of story.
CIAO~
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